Well, last week was kinda …well…blah. I’ve been feeling a lot of blah lately and I got up early this morning and did some chanting. Sometimes that can be really calming and centering and other times it can be very scary because stuff just comes up and when one is facing the Gohonzon it’s like looking at a mirror. And you can’t look away. I’m the proverbial Gemini, always moving, always dabbling in this or that and I get restless. Bored. I’m no good at twiddling my thumbs. I do have some work this week so that will keep me busy. And I also booked a small gig. My agent said I didn’t sound too excited and no, I’m not. It’s just one day and while I can’t sneeze at the pay, it’s just not that exciting to me. I did see some rushes of the web series that I’m in. I did good work and so that was a great feeling.
I finally got my hair done and that cost me more than I’d like but I’m happy with the different look. I think what has been bugging is that I’ve been looking at old pictures and I guess I’m just feeling well, a little old and worn. It sounds a little silly, don’t you think? I didn’t think I was that vain, but apparently I am. I see pictures of me holding Boo when he was a year old and I look slim, fresh and well-coiffed. I’ve managed to get a lot of alone time this year and it really does help recharge my batteries. I just love being able to switch off and be quiet these days. It’s like a mini-vacation really. I have a long to do list but I’m good at procrastinating. Yesterday I spent the afternoon in a zero gravity chair on the deck reading. I think that might have happened 3 years ago. Glorious. No barking dogs, no construction going on, no loud neighbours. Instead of doing all the things I should have been doing, I actually just relaxed. Wow. Creepy.