I have to admit, I’ve been in a bit of a funk. I mean, life is good, life is fine. But I’m not doing much acting. A ton of auditions and only one day of work. I can’t tell you how heartbreaking it is to get all these great parts to audition and only booking a tiny part. I have to admit, I’m feeling so discouraged. I was in acting class and getting coaching and I believe I’m doing good work, but nothing. I have checked up on a couple of the shows I auditioned for and found out they hired Americans and actual stars for the part I wanted. This is annoying since it’s not like they were huge parts but they are only obligated to audition Canadian talent, not hire them for the principal roles. Seems like others are doing so well and ….yes I know, I know, comparing myself to others who are doing so well is the worst possible thing I can do to myself. At this point, I don’t even want to audition – what’s the point?
It feels like I have to reinvent myself and I admit I’ve lost my drive to ACTUALLY DO IT. I seriously have to reinvigorate my life, I’m boring myself to death. I’m going on a vacation with Boo and my gal pal and her little girl tomorrow. Off to a cabin resort place for a few days and I’m really looking forward to it.